Happy New Year:)

It’ll be new year in 30 minutes time... (bdw, this blog time slow wan so don’t kena tipu)
New Year=New Beginning

I’m not going to make any new year’s resolution...cause I always break them. So I’m just going to say that I’ll work hard to try to be a better person. I feel so much better today=)

Someone once said : “ You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realise your worth.”

So for now I want to chase after my dreams now and change to be a better person (hopefully). And maybe one day someone will see my worth and accept all my imperfections & mistakes. =)

By the way, I just want to wish everyone Happy 2009. May you have a life full of happiness, good health, money and always be around those you love. =)

Oh and I wrote this poem for a good friend of mine a few days ago. Although it is quite lousy but I really mean the words I wrote. So I just hope I’m forgiven.

I look forward for sleep
To avoid facing the sadness I keep
I hide away from everyone
Because there’s nothing that can undo what’s done
I was once your best friend
But now it feels like the end
Everything I said that day was a mistake
Please forgive me for our friendship’s sake
Life is too short for you to be mad
So stop thinking about the things I did that make you sad
I hope you know I’m truly sorry
Especially for those times I made you worry
I know I uttered some mean words
It probably hurt you more than real swords
I admit that I was wrong
But why are you still avoiding me for so long?
Can’t you see that I still care?
So please stop giving me that angry stare
Why can’t you just forgive and forget?
And go back to the time we first met?
I wish I could have my best friend back
So that happy memories in future we will not lack

My Dearest Friend~

I wrote this poem when I was in the foundation programme...there's another poem called 'salvation' but i won't put it up here yet.

I feel empty inside
I don’t know where to hide
I know you’re gone
And I’m all alone
It’s just terrible
Sometimes even unbearable
Destiny took you away
Now I miss you everyday
I remember the times we spent together
I thought it would last forever
The secrets we’ve shared
The talks we’ve had
The jokes you made
To make my worries fade
You always understood
Even when I was in my worst mood
A few years have gone by
But my tears still haven’t run dry
You’ll forever be in my heart
Even death can’t break us apart

Merry Christmas...

Christmas is a day away


But somehow the ‘feel’ of Christmas is missing this year


Maybe things are incomplete for me I guess


This year my family has no plans


My friends on the other hand are busy with their own plans


Actually they are scattered all over the place...


Some are honey-mooning in Europe and Australia right now


Some are in Alor Setar (without Kimmy...haha!), Ipoh, Johor, Penang, Singapore, Paris, Sydney And the country that starts with a ‘U’ (Can’t guess?...United States of America lah!)


This year GBF isn’t coming home also which makes Christmas feel weird somehow, like something is missing... (Bdw, I miss your crappy jokes)


But you know what? I think we sometimes forget what Christmas really is; we forget the reason to celebrate...


Christmas isn’t just another holiday in our calendar


Christmas isn’t just about gifts, trees, decorations and turkey


Christmas isn’t just another family and friends gathering (We should remember them more often than once a year!)


Christmas is definitely not just for couples (no offence ah)


Finally Christmas isn’t about Santa, his sleigh and Rudolph the red nose reindeer (lol)


So what is Christmas to me??


Christmas is about LOVE (Harlow, not Boy-Girl-Relationship Love lah)


It’s about God’s love for us; somehow we matter to Him


It’s about Jesus coming into this world to save us...and that’s my reason to celebrate


John 3:16: “For God so love the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”


1 John 4:19: “We love because HE FIRST LOVED US.”


There’s this quote that I love. Brooke Davis said it in One Tree Hill...


“Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. When life gets hard, when things change, true love remains the same.”


This is it.


I hope you find the reason to celebrate...Merry Christmas!

Crappy Job Hunting Days =)

I’m really happy for my friends who have started their working life =) Soon I’ll have many audit associates, taxation associates (lol is that what you call it?), analysts, oh yes and not forgetting (drum roll please…) the soon to be personal fitness instructor… Free services k from all of you? HAHAHA…


Anyways, I went for an interview yesterday. Quite funny experience =) It was a good thing I went early, had a full tank of petrol and had money to pay for the toll. Know why? Cause I got lost and had to pay extra toll and was stuck in the jam for like an hour. But I reached on time, thank goodness =)


Why was it a funny experience? Cause when I was there filling up the form so ngam met an old classmate who was applying for the same post! LOL. Previously we worked together in a few assignments…and I truly have to say he is a better candidate for the job. Cause he is outspoken, has good public relation skills and is very active in extra curriculum activities. In fact I really do hope he gets the job lah =)


Let me tell you about the job…the pay is really good for a fresh graduate. 3k leh~ But must pass ALL 4 stages in order to get the job:


Stage 1: Interview with HR, personality test and Essay writing
Stage 2: IQ test
Stage 3: Interview with corporate heads
Stage 4: Presentation of Case Study


I baru habis stage 1 and I’m waiting to see if can get to stage 2. Have to wait for them to call to see if I passed the interview. Actually to be honest, I’m not anxious if I don’t get to stage 2 cause of two things. The first is the bond with the company for 2 years (meaning I have to pay back all the salary if I leave anytime which I’m not keen on) and the second is that I think God always has a plan. Who knows maybe He will give me something better? Although I would really like to earn 3k for my starting salary (haha)


Here’s something a friend reminded me: “If God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won’t he more surely care for you?”( Matthew 6:30, NLT)



Don't you just hate it when you know your friend is correct? (LAUGHS~)